2020 and the things I loved

For some people, 2020 was the worst year yet. At the height of a global pandemic, I found solitude. I worked in a call center, and thankfully enough, we were deployed to work from home. (talk about privilege)

I, too was anxious. I was scared of the future. Will I die? Will I ever find true love before dying? Are we safe inside our home? And so on. The paranoia was uncontrollable yet I can say I found solitude despite of it all. 

Firstly, I picked up a lot of hobbies. I started painting. I still continued scrapbooking and writing poems. I started reading classics AGAIN. I was rediscovering myself and I found out a lot of things that I need to work on. 

I was able to soothe my inner child's cry for help and attention. Art was and is my savior. 

Second, I learned to love teas and coffees. I loved slow mornings with my coffee, pandesal, and hotdogs and sunny side up. I would sit in our terrace and admire the slow and serene view of my morning. 

Third, the amount I spent on online shopping was HUGE. Now, this is privilege. I was earning a great deal of money that time. And since I can't travel, I spent it all on books, art materials, yoga essentials, food, and many more. 

Fourth, I learned to love and eat my greens. I'm a picky eater but since the pandemic, I learned how to treat my body well. Rewarding myself after working hard is priceless. 

Fifth, I learned to disconnect and enjoy watching movies and series on Netflix, Amazon Prime, and the downloaded ones. I'm a sucker for my short attention span, I just can't finish an hour long episode in one sitting without hitting on the skip button. 

Sixth, I learned how to meditate and how to clam my inner demons. 

Seventh, I learned how to love myself. I finally realized my worth. I learned that I can still be whole and complete even if people will leave me. 

I can't express in more words how much I am thankful for 2020.