When Showing Up Gets Hard

Sometimes, I feel like I fail as a friend, or maybe it’s better to say that I sometimes fail to show up the way I want to.

Let me explain.

There are days when I intentionally leave messages unopened because I just don’t have the mental space to take on anyone else’s load. It’s not that I don’t care; I actually care too much. But when I’m overwhelmed, it takes hours for me to feel okay again… and that means it also takes hours before I can respond.

This shift started back in 2024. I’m not sure what changed, but I found myself shutting down more often than usual. Maybe it was the weight of everything I’d been holding in. Maybe I was just exhausted. Or maybe I simply reached a point where my mind and heart needed rest, even if I didn’t know how to ask for it.

With this confession came a realization that I need to pour more love, care, and time into myself,  to recover, to reset, and to make space for what actually matters.

I plan to keep my blog as much as possible since I've been getting feedback from my silent readers that they love it. (I appreciate you!) But I might be letting go of my other social media apps, like Facebook, TikTok, Threads, and Twitter. I will be keeping my Instagram (I like posting pictures), and I might not respond to DMs as well. My peace comes first now, and honestly, I’m willing to disappear for a while if that’s what it takes to protect it.

I’m choosing to fill my own cup first, so others can benefit from the overflow.

With love and light, 

E.