Nostalgia through my eyes

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I always have this feeling of melancholy and magic whenever I watch movies from the 80s, 90s, and the early 2000s. I love how the people at the time were not hung up and addicted to their mobile phones like I am. I love how they don't have social media and mobile phones. 

I think this roots in my childhood in Iligan. I grew up with my grandmothers. We lived a frugal life. We were happy and content. I remember reading books all day, and my Nanay would reprimand me all the time. She said I'll ruin my vision because of non-stop reading. And she's right, I did ruin my eyesight. I have astigmatism now, and I also ruined my reproductive health.

After dinner, I would listen to the radio, waiting for the lottery results. My Mommy would wash us up and change our clothes for bed. I remember sleeping in our living room because it was comfortable than sleeping in our room. Life was forgiving at the time. It was simple and quiet. 

I figured that old movies make the memory of my childhood so magical because my Mommy loved movies and singing. My family did their best to provide and educate me, and exposed me to culture, and all I remember is the comfort of home. 

Today, I watched another Julia Roberts movie, and it made me cry. I miss home. I miss my Mommy and Nanay. All the stress from work makes me nostalgic even more. 

Nostalgia flashed into my eyes, and I embraced it fully.


-Barbie Love. 

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