A trip down memory lane

I  recently felt nostalgic and somewhat melancholic when I came across a video of a valedictorian from the University of the Philippines on TikTok. It was their graduation, and as is customary, the valedictorian delivered a speech. 

Jethro Sia Modequillo, who graduated with a degree in Computer Science from the University of the Philippines - Diliman, delivered his valedictory speech early this month. He spoke with such eloquence and articulated his thoughts well. I admire his rational approach to success, failure, and the pressure of expectations.

I have to admit that I only saw a couple clips of his speech from TikTok because that's the only thing my deteriorating attention span can handle. However, I understood the main points, and I agree with Jethro. Some people thrive when enough expectations push them to excel in either academics or work. Some people, however, breaks down when confronted with such pressure and tough love from mentors, professors, and bosses. I understand the feeling because I've been in the same situation at work when I was trained with tough love. Good news, I survived. 

I had the opposite treatment at school though. My Lola did not pressure me to excel. I pressured myself to do better. Studying was never a burden because I loved reading and learning new things. I challenged myself to subjects that I found hard. Lo and behold, I graduated valedictorian 9 years ago. Time flies fast when you're working. Looking back, I'm grateful for all the experiences that molded me to be a better person- a wiser and more mature me. 

I found a copy of my valedictory speech and medals while going through all my files. It still amazes me that I was able to achieve my long-term dream. I still think that it was God's grace that helped me during those trying times. The pressure I put on myself before helped me when I entered the workforce. You have to have the initiative to finish your task, hit your target, and earn your keep. Some managers will give you the "tough" love and cold shoulder for you to do better and improve. 

The point of this blog is not to brag. I wrote this for myself, to reflect on things I did in the past, and to stay grounded. We fail, we succeed, we learn, we improve, and we repeat the cycle. This is the reality. Nobody is perfect enough to escape life without some bruises and wisdom. 

The battle never ends after graduation. That was just the beginning.

Xoxo,

E. 

Me and my high school best friend. My salutatorian. Future Engr. Fabie Barcenal Jr. 

A gift for my Lola's sacrifices.