Sea of Strangers

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In a sea full of strangers, 
I’m scared I’ve got no one to share my life with. 

I’ve almost lost hope with love.
Life has been cruel to me.
I stumbled and fell a couple of times.
And I’ve got no one but me to pick myself up.

I got my heart scarred,
Given almost all pieces of my soul to anyone who tried to enter my life.

I was naive and desperate for love back then.

In a sea full of strangers, 
There you are, looking for me.
Finally, 
We found each other. 
-E. 

(Poem was written for my on-going book titled, Things I Did After You Left. I'm not sure when will I finish this but I take it day by day. Mostly, I write my thoughts here in my blog and I don't have the creative juice for my poetry book.)



Photo taken yesterday, when we went to the beach to celebrate our small wins and to make peace with our mental health. 

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