Prose, Poetry, and Thoughts: Entry #5

-
Life has a funny way of making me insane. 
My heart's in pieces knowing that I can’t have you
No–
Not in this lifetime.

I love you for every lifetimes we’re in .
I just know that I’ll always gravitate towards you.

I can’t help it 
My soul remembers you.
And I do hope you remember mine too. 

But,
I can’t let this endless cycle of us crossing paths and falling in love happen in this lifetime.

This has to end here. 

With me.

-E. 


(Okay, I just can't stop sharing my works. I don't know I feel like sharing.)





Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Losing ourselves in the mirror: A moral dilemma on plastic surgery and authenticity

-
Recently, I asked myself how should I ask this question without being offensive? How should I construct my thoughts about altering one's physical features, in other words,  plastic surgery. I've been seeing more and more famous personalities getting it done: people who can afford it, and those who simply want to enhance their beauty. I'm not against it, in fact, some of my favorite artists had their lips, eyes, nose, and most of their body done. However, one thing I can't unsee now is that they look the same. They all share similar features when viewed through the lens of social media. I couldn't shake the thought of, "Where did all the variety go?". I shrugged my thoughts back to where they belonged at first, back to the abyss. I was scared of voicing this thought because I know it will hurt a lot of people, and I don't want that. But I just can't keep it all in my journal anymore, so I asked Pat, my ever-patient man, "Mahal, what do you thi...
Read more

Nostalgia through my eyes

-
I always have this feeling of melancholy and magic whenever I watch movies from the 80s, 90s, and the early 2000s. I love how the people at the time were not hung up and addicted to their mobile phones like I am. I love how they don't have social media and mobile phones.  I think this roots in my childhood in Iligan. I grew up with my grandmothers. We lived a frugal life. We were happy and content. I remember reading books all day, and my Nanay would reprimand me all the time. She said I'll ruin my vision because of non-stop reading. And she's right, I did ruin my eyesight. I have astigmatism now, and I also ruined my reproductive health. After dinner, I would listen to the radio, waiting for the lottery results. My Mommy would wash us up and change our clothes for bed. I remember sleeping in our living room because it was comfortable than sleeping in our room. Life was forgiving at the time. It was simple and quiet.  I figured that old movies make the memory of my childhoo...
Read more

I lack self-control

-
Yes, that's right. I lack the discipline to sleep on time. I'm one of the guilty ones who scrolls on social media for hours, and over stimulates myself with ideas I know I probably wouldn't do right away. News that overwhelms me. Instagram stories of people who share their lives online, and so on.  In fact, Merriam- Webster dictionary recognized the word, Doomscrolling in 2023. Which means, " the tendency to continue to surf or scroll through bad news, even though that news is saddening, disheartening, or depressing".   I was one of the doom scrollers of 2020-2023. I indulge with overwhelming contents and suffer from anxiety the minute I put my phone down. It's such a shame that I'm still stuck on the loop --minus the sad news. This time, I doomscroll to read articles, watch booktube videos, scroll through my pictures, and look for references for my sketchbook.  But even though I've cut out the negative contents from my algorithm, it still leaves me fe...
Read more