Bigger Than The Whole Sky: The Things I Kept Hushed for Years

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The minute I heard Taylor Swift's new album, my heart fell in love instantly to one of her songs, Bigger Than The Whole Sky. It made me remember someone I never even get the chance to see and hold. 

The song hits home and it became my favorite. Sky is one of the reason why I am addicted to pretty skies and sunsets. 

This photo was taken this year after my shift. I was walking home when I noticed how pretty the sky was. Despite the scorching heat of the Sun, I managed to take this photo and I instantly liked it. I'm not a photographer but I liked how it turned out. 

The second photo was taken on our family beach trip last June 2022. 


Took this at my old place. I was sad and drained but Sky made me happy. Showed me how beautiful life is despite the ups and downs. 



The sky mimics my mood. I was in love when Sky showed its pretty colors. I love the fact that all of my photos were not edited.

The world looks different when you're in love. It's true when they say couples view the world in a rose-coloured glasses. (You couldn't really see the red flags then!)

All I ever wish for Sky is to be happy wherever he is right now. I love you. 

Love,
E. 


PS. I didn't really tell you what I kept hushed for years. Well, I did gave a hint. ;) 

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